Try to shut yourself down as much as you can

You become more and more machine like. Not thinking, not feeling. No more mental pain but no more joy either. You are like a car coasting down a gentle downcline in neutral. Just not be "here" until this fucking war ends.

1. comfortably numb
2. smoke reefer once a week, the only time you are not in robot mode
3. the end is near

⤓ Emotional coaster by McFing Experience