You throw up in the bathroom. Your spend a long time in there crying. Hating yourself. Feeling helpless. When you finally go back outside you say you can't preform. You are too sick and strung out. The say just have a energy drink and some coffee and do another night. You refuse. They say that they are going to play without you. You say thats fine and that your sorry. While you are settling into re-hab they are playing live and the place burns down. Only Jicks Thompson , unofficial fifth member survives. It looks bad for the band, looks bad. But you are lucky to have survived. Not only that but your out of control drug use. Saved twice! When you get out of rehab you smoke a joint to celebrate. Soft drugs are fine. You call Jicks for a long talk.