So you start going to church and getting right with Jesus. You feel better knowing your saved. But you also feel worse because your new belief system is formed by your christian peers and they are so filled with hatred for anyone who is different is rubs off on you. You clench up with hate everything you see a non white person, a long hair, a young punk with some trendy hairstyle.
The hate is giving birth to cancer inside you, so maybe the next life ain't too far away.