23 Days in the life of Motley Howe

Day 13: We don"t exist

Dream journal entry:9-24-94:At a outside religous rally. A blond is being sermoned by naked men.I go back to the trailer for awhile,then go back to the main group of people. I'm calling everyone long distance.I see Christina,she looks vary pretty.I fondle a couple of the ladies breasts. Kansas is a strange neighborhood I think...

Motley wakes up a sweating nudey. Everything seems to be on a loop,playing the same things over again,he thought.He had chamomile pancakes for breakfast,dad called,said you are scum. Motley has a bit a marijuanna! He smokes and closes his eyes, trying to escape the pain of being Motely. .................Mock turtle soup will harm your creative mind, Motely's dream body hurls backwards.

Motley's dream body hurls backwards.

"Love is 23 skidoo,Mot says crumpling the note and tossing it in the trash. "I had nothing to eat but Mock turtle soup".
Dovi was stoned too,"why do I drink?" She hugged Motely on the highest tree, the Illuminati surfaced nest in the garden of delights.

I hope you'll wake up
The drug-dream very nice genitals

Motely is considering suicide, aversion, distrust, and fear. Sexual tension,two big jooints overgrown with vines. Vack should be sent the fellow sigh. The cheeks of my ass reflected sunlight, being in love means total surrender. Pelt Vack with rocks so violently. My cock pulsed in a hashish dream. Cut up a love letter in the cornfelds around the city. Motely is always high, be warned. Keep "I'm under surveillance, they are just wearing a long flannal shirt. You want to fuck while i was jerking off. Stark naked, plenty of fun beneath his stained little doll. Motley began to moan as Aubrey brought on evil dreams. Dovi's obsessed with smoking opium and hashish. Dovi lay on her stomich, what is freedom? Provoking the anger of the flowing yellow mask. Motely was angry-and the autmm moon is bright. He woke up briefly, to the sound of thunder and pelting rain. It's fun you know, watching the white smoke. Aud says"! apologize for hitting you during sex on acid". His awful dreams needs more and more of the drugs.Aubrey walking with a blanket,her tight fears would fade. Motely nods and smiles at her small breasts.

"What a tongue fuck,like a trip to Yoggoth and beyond". Motely found marijuana at twin bridges. He is the 23rd savior sitting up in bed, hugging her kness. Dovi wanted so bad to feel the time clock.

Tension fades away feeling plessure everywhere in my body
Love is funky sexual cakes
Ron Hill sighted at the streets of Carcosa

Soma floats in the darkness electricity in the air, stripped down to her panties. Vack dying for the love of the Easter Bunny, Dreaming found it in the bedroom naked dream besides Vack. Night of September 23,there was a huge white flower on the bedrroom wall. At the Easter Bunny's mad tea party, the sound of muffled sobbing continued. Jacking off, full of misery Mot put a finger to his ears.

Fuck you sad fever world

attraction and passion. leaves me feeling very inadequate

rickus grinned fiendishly forwards. He was vampid and stragulious in his own distiny. But fuck that and all and all. He Easter Bunny crosses the mid sexual cusps of crotch wasps. His is the lush grassy paradice always wet with warm dew. He is pan,he is sex. He takes me underground to the halls of Easterns.

Slip away,zombie death. Black darkness the eye of the undermind has finally blinked, milions die! Halls of vomit rides molten thoughts of brainpuke. Rats feast on a sick burning world. Random objects smoke in fields.What else?

U.N. officials bombing iraq, but Iraq was given the power to sting like a scorpion. Last month the drug-dream satisfied her breasts and abdomen. Rickus,author of the classic Ligntning and thunder issued from weapons and long-range missile denyied that he refused to destroy all his chemical biological weapons of mass destruction. The search for the elusive dark times is coming. The una-bomber must save the world. His explosives devices are clues to the man's motivation. The Unabomber threatens use of biological veapons. The Unabomber is blamed for a drug task force getting shot to death.The bomber's latest letters on sexual occultism. Missiles were flown by rebel Unabomber's drug cartel. Drug money laundering,crazy demand for cocaine and nuclear weapons.The Iraqi cocaine caused the deaths of 3 and the injury of 23.

A creative sensuous man won 23 million in the lottery. Mad Carcosa leaves me feeling very threatened. Do I satisfy my wife as well as rebel serbs? It is so romantic to blow up the lake of Hali. Drive by shootings at the bridges of Lost Carcosa. Rictus cautioned that drugs arrests won't end. Die thou unsung, Prince charming.

War with warplanes is unhealthy for all concerned. Black helicopters are so beautiful.Overpowered by the shock, deputy arrested in killings. Were really hell-bent racked with quilt over putrid love in a four-day affair. Confess to your spouse that there's nothing out there.

Romantic relationships are lurking masked in the city of Hastur.

Day 21:sadness grasps my left ventricle

Mott has no more dream journal, the feds took it away, it's illegal to record your dreams, and a felony to have lucid dreams, also missing is his books on meditation,and dice.

When napping behind the trailer with his cat he dreams That he is walking through ankle deep water at a garage sale, theres a swarm of junebugs, one of them flys up his ear. Swimming in the flood water are hundreds of long grey half snake half insect things, with dozens of barbed spikes and pinchers on hundreds of legs. Long ash colored mandibles with a one foot span.

He walks through fields and side-roads, coming on the area where a magic bridge is.He don'tknow just how to find it from here,but he chooses a road and goes.This road takes him to a overgrown sidepath that seems interesting.lt is about the size now of a walking path,trees hangs over it,from one a venus of willendorf hangs.On ward he sees a rotting wooded wall on either side of the road,here he meets a dwarf. He is a black man who walks on stumpy arms andlegs.MOt got down on his hands and knees to hang with him .Alone comes 4 men in middle ages period clothing.He remembers now that he knows them from way back wherever.Its good to see odd friends again.

Make chew friends
But keep the odd
One's to saliva
And the other is god

Day 22: Mindless other gods lined wit erectile hairs

Open eyes moon rise here we sit in circle all thats round is holy. now we talk to try to get *it.... the
new aoen

Afterword

I'll babble more later where books are pillows. I'm outside smoking a joint with'a blinding flash I'm going to new Jersey under the blanket.I open the gunand walkaway quickly. Where did that blond go? Bobbling on a cane. No trembling back now while running through a feild At the house in Maize I trip and fall women in varyous states of nudity go on as I dress the car lurches off the road on the way to chapil perilous what a curious way to die early morning chill on the road to the slaughterhouse.

completely naked I become a white buffalo I find some indian artifacts.
I find toys and other objects half buried I find a bag pocket it.
Cat that is sleeping looks very dangerous I hear him,he looks at me funny.
Climbing through clouds of smoke rise a big mood hangover two red lights follow me.
A few books touch them chewing on cinders I keep tapping.
Rubbing her pussy it's almost knee-deep shadow the dog follows me through a huge ice storm.
The cute girl and I are going to make love . I'm naked clothes spread about.
I talk to a lady and fall onto the lawn

oneself crusified in the chamber foam on a beach of skin,I'm drenched

I kiss her on the bare feet

giant turtle frog watches the local news I walk through ankle deep water with a big joint steamy cunt killed the cat.

He has gone insane he has a gun he laughs and sqeels off God said "Find buried, dice in your underwear"
Hypnosis-pocus sexual occultism.